Saturday, January 31, 2004
So says my platoon mate Dilbert Chua, 433rd Battalion Singapore Armoured Regiment Bravo Tactical Team Seven Section One Second Light Anti-Tank Weapon Gunner and journalist. He makes that sweeping statement while we clean our new SAR21 rifle after a day at the firing range, and after receiving a phone call from his girlfriend, who has obviously exasperated him somewhat. We're sitting at the foot of our beds while we meticulously rub carbon off the gas regulator and the other small parts of the unfamiliar weapon with pieces of flannel held with tweezers. Takes a lot longer than the old M16, we complain. Singapore men are submissive, can follow orders and are easily trained. Dilbert's girlfriend apparently hasn't been sensitive to the fact that he is in camp for all of six days sacrificing his precious time for the security of the nation. She has asked him to help her assemble her new IKEA cupboard on Saturday, the day we get out-processed, without as much as an iota of consideration for his tiredness and need for some tender loving understanding. A piece of flannel 2 inches by 1 inch is too thick when folded by the eye of the five piece pull-through rod to be pulled through the barrel of the rifle. We struggle with the cleaning. There's still carbon all over the little nooks and crannies of the rifle. Singapore men are the new Thai women. Dilbert says Singapore women use and abuse Singapore men. Singapore women are obviously oblivious to the universal hardship that Singapore men have to endure: 13 years of part-time National Service, 2.5 years of full-time National Service, going to university and graduating 2.5 years later than Singapore women, getting jobs later and still expected to be the bread winner and provider for parents and children, and still be expected to wow women and sweep them off their feet. It's a hard life. It's a Thai woman's life. And the parts of the rifle are just as hard to put back together as they are to clean.
Sunday, January 25, 2004
Welcome to Buangkok, a million miles from care. In fact, a million miles from anywhere
Today, I managed to see other people apart from my family, by visiting my platoon mate's new flat in a new housing estate called Buangkok. I went only because I was curious to see what Buangkok looked like. It is very far. You can see Johor from the upper floors. It was a very nicely done up flat though, complete with government issued bomb shelter. A bomb shelter on the 16th floor sounds ludicrous, and everyone I spoke to didn't have any explanation as to how people would survive trapped in a bomb shelter on the 16th floor when the rest of the building is hit by a bomb. Being Singaporeans, most people preferred not to question the government's apparently unexplainable wisdom, and continued using their bomb shelters as spare store rooms.
Friday, January 23, 2004
Symptoms of fire Last week during ICT, we were treated to the usual round of lectures, done by instructors in an army of the 21st century - powerpoint slides, flash animations, the works. Lectures usually precede practical field training, and despite our sniggering, they usually help in our understanding of what we're supposed to do in the field. Except for our fire evacuation drill. The first slide was of five points, and titled 'the five symptoms of fire'. My mates and I spent the next twenty minutes giggling, and could only remember three 'symptoms': heat, bright light and smoke. 'Symptoms of fire' became our catchphrase for the week.
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
A breakfast menu Once upon a time, not too long ago, but long enough to feel sentimental about, I cooked up to three meals a day for the girlfriend. We lived off Anzac Parade, on Lenthall Street in Kensington. Just the two of us. In the summer, she had a job at the Hyatt Regency which was then located on top of the hill at Kings Cross, where the famous Coke neon sign was. As she was the only one in the house with a job, I had the housekeeping duties. I shopped for groceries, thinking up dishes as I pushed the trolley down the supermarket aisles. Breakfast: Tuna on English muffins with asparagus and swiss cheese. 6 English muffins 1 can tuna 1 can asparagus spears 1 doz slices, swiss (or nearest) cheese black pepper I'd wake up an hour before she did, at 6am, and quietly go to the kitchen to prepare the breakfast that would ensure she was in love with me the rest of the day. The sun was already up and peering through the living room windows. It used to get so bright in the mornings that you'd get a sunburn if you didn't cover yourself with the blanket properly. I'd sing softly to myself as I took the muffins out of the bag and put them on the chopping board where I cut them in horizontal halves. Two muffins. The other four went back into the bag, later to be devoured by myself in a less delicate fashion. La donna è mobile qual piuma al vento muta d'accento e di pensiero Sempre un'amabile leggiadro viso in pianto e in riso è menzognero La donna è mobil qual piuma al vento muta d'accento e di pensier È sempre misero chi a lei s'affida chi le confida mal cauto il core Pur mai non sentesi felice appieno chi su quel seno non liba amore (Woman is changeable Poor feather flying blind Sweet words, then so unkind Changing her little mind She’s always amiable Beauty to spellbind Laughs, cries, she doesn’t mind Lies when she’s so inclined Woman is changeable Feather that flies blind Sweet words then unkind Changing her mind He’s always miserable He that will trust in her. He that confides in her Gives up his heart to her Yet he can never be Free from his misery ‘Til he embraces her Won’t know what love can be) Opening a can of tuna takes some effort, especially when you don't want to spill the oil onto the kitchen counter. A lot of kitchen towels are employed. It's best you open the can till you've left 5' of the 360' hanging as a hinge. You then use a fork to pry it open, dig out the contents into a bowl. And this is where the art begins. With the fork, I'd massage the tuna into a paste, not too fine, not too coarse, blending freshly ground black pepper at intervals. By now, she would have woken and would be heading to the bathroom. I could then turn on either the tv or the radio. This day, I turned on the radio, because the cricket hadn't started on the tv. Triple M 104.9FM. Coffee or tea? Tea, she says. I'd put the kettle on, take two mugs, two Lady Grey tea bags out and put them in the mugs. Same deal with the can of asparagus. Drain the water and set the spears on a plate, and cut them to size so they can fit on top of the muffins without drooping over the sides too much. Placing the four muffin halves on the board, I'd spoon the tuna evenly on them, then place the muffins into the toaster oven, already pre-heated for a minute. It takes a minute for it to be slightly toasted. I'd take out the halves and arrange the asparagus spears on top of the tuna, and place one slice of cheese on top of each tuna muffin. Back into the oven they went. This time, I had to watch as the cheese melted, wrapped itself over the asparagus and tuna, browned slightly and drooped over the sides and not a moment longer. With tongs, the tuna, asparagus and swiss cheese open muffins were ready to be served, two halves on each plate, with a slice of tomato on the side for good measure. Juice? Orange, please. Tea was ready by then too. We'd sit, eat, and I didn't have to wait for her to tell me she enjoyed the breakfast. You are making me fat, she'd say. Then don't eat, I'd say. We don't say much else. I'd ask her what time she finished that day and whether she'd like dinner. Yes. OK. I'll go to Coles again later.
Monday, January 05, 2004
When we're not sick, we forget the aches, the drowsiness, the struggle to have control over our faculties. I think I am talking about what it will be like in the next week during in-camp. No matter how much I prepare myself mentally for the training, it never seems adequate for the gradual shock of being knee deep in mud, baked in the sun under the kevlar helmet that now collects evaporated sweat on its underside, buzzed by a hundred mosquitoes and stung by ants just as stunned to find your limb isn't a plant. You can talk about it to death. But the shock comes from having to stay that way, assaulted by the heat, the itch and the dampness for hour after debilitating hour. Then comes night. Your eyes struggle to adjust. Everything is a blur and fumble. They give you night vision devices which only shows everything up as green in colour, and gives you motion sickness. The mosquitoes seem to multiply exponentially. The volume of their buzzing increases several hundred decibels it seems. The ground is damp when you sit on it, and you are still sweating. Worse, your uniform begins to stink as bacteria grows on the fabric. Three more nights to go. Every single square inch of your body is irritated. You gradually become aware of the immense acreage of your skin. A few reddish welts appear on of all places, your knuckles. The goddamned mosquitoes really know where to sting where it irritates most. Knuckles, between fingers, ears, middle of your back. You'd put more repellent on if not for the fact it keeps getting washed off by your own sweat and the chafing that is already turning your skin red-raw. You tell yourself you'd love nature if only nature loved you more. Your nose, if you were fortunate enough not to have a cold or flu, is assaulted by the plethora of different smells. First up, your stinking uniform. That unmistakable sourish smell. Then, repellent. Then, the mud. Then, the sourish smell of the soldier next to you. You try to block everything out, but you can't, and you can't sleep because of that. They tell you to sleep, because there's a mission in two hours, and you're desperate to sleep, but can't... A few loud buzzes by mosquitoes looking for the next best place to sting after scoring all your knuckles, two ears, eyelids and lips, and you're just putting down your arm from waving ineffectively at them when a whisper goes up "wake up wake up, get ready". There's a few muffled grunts in reply, and some soldiers in your section fall back to sleep, but their mates rustle them up again. You stand up and pick up your weapons and gear as quietly as possible, but nevertheless clanging every possible thing against every possible hard surface, prompting another whisper from the dark "shhhh. quiet". You listen half asleep to instructions and then excuse yourself to stumble several meters from the group to take a leak. You will your urine to pass quickly, so as to minimize the chances of any insect invading the insides of your pants. You stare at the dark to make sure you have been pissing downhill too. And of course, you excuse yourself just before passing urine, to make sure any slumbering spirit has vacated the area just in front of you. The next few hours you trudge quickly with your tactical team, hoping the guy leading knows where he's going. Your back aches to high heaven, your smell has turned a different kind of sour, you are hungry and the welts on your body are swelling as your pores open up again. You walk for what seems like many hours. You see the dim blue light of dawn. That pause in the weather just before the sun rises. It may rain or it may shine. Either way, there is a strange morning breeze. You feel refreshed. It takes a bit of the sour smell off. The men in front of you suddenly make frantic hand signals. A thumbs down signal followed by a flurry of hand signals. Enemy in front. 100 metres. Entrenched. GPMG. Section two left, section three right, section one stay with me. You are awake now. There is a fizzing sound and a sudden smell of burning cord. You are more awake now, because in 4 seconds a flash bang grenade (thunderflash) explodes at your feet. You and your mates are pushed instinctively into action. Thumbs flick switch from safety to semi on the rifles and you raise your weapons, point and shoot three round bursts at where you think the enemy is, because you haven't seen them yet. Someone sees them and yells directions. The battle starts and ends about ten minutes later. You are exhausted, thirsty, but very awake. You smell burnt gunpowder all over, and it's still coming from your weapon. It is a comforting smell. If it's raining, you like the warmth of your rifle. If it's dry, you like the smell. You get a bit of a rest over the 'enemies dead bodies' while the support team comes and patches the injured up, counts the dead and replenishes water. You check yourself and discover you've torn a trouser leg and your knee is bleeding and your knuckles are cut up. You pour a bit of water over your wounds and joke about it to the guy next to you who seems to be in worse shape, so you shut up. You are asked to 'stand down' after half an hour, and you finally take off your helmet, drink a whole bottle of water and fumble through your backpack looking for something to eat. The supply train comes and distributes more ammunition and food and the next hour is spent reloading bullets into magazines and waiting for further orders. By now, the sun is up and angrily drying up your sweat, matting your hair and hardening your uniform. If it's raining, the drops pelt your skin through your uniform and you feel as if your underwear has shrunk two sizes. And you have to do it all over again for the next three days.
Sunday, January 04, 2004
Men wish they were from Mars I wish B and I were in the same city. That way, I can track every woman he falls in love with, and see for myself how he gets himself into such strife, and nip the next crush in the bud before it becomes the next crash. I can also distract him with beers, touch rugby, kayaking, bookshops, DVDs, coffee, broadband internet access, suppers and driving around aimlessly. That would mean that same city would have to be Singapore, no less. I can eavesdrop on his occasional conversations he has with the objects of his affections on his mobile phone, and glean from them the type of women they are, what they want from him and whether they are open to the idea of dating him or whether they just want to be good friends with him. Because all women want a good friend or six. And a good male friend is worth six female ones. A good male friend gives a woman the perspective from a male point of view. It empowers her with the working knowledge of a man's mind. Or so she thinks. That good male friend would fall in love with her at some point, the consequence of which may be one of three: lasting friendship, lasting relationship or lasting animosity. That good male friend's judgment on matters brought to his attention by the woman remains clouded by a) lust, b) resentment, or c) disinterest. Still, she thinks him valuable, because she is unsure of herself. She likes him to ratify her own decisions, which she has made way before she asks him for his opinion. It just gives her decision (mostly to do with men) the weight she thinks it requires. And, she also likes the attention, and the little tinge of excitement that comes with the possibility of that male friend actually liking her romantically. She milks it for all it is worth. By saying she misses him. By saying how valuable his advice is. By saying "if I wasn't in love with him, I might be in love with you". He responds, thrilled at the very words. Stupidly. I miss you too. And no matter how painful it is, says but you're in love with him and not me. Woman 1, Male Friend 0. B, I reckon, has scored many own goals this way. My job, were we in the same city, would be to make sure he doesn't do it too often. Yes, it is a given that we Male Friends are on the losing side. A bit like Arsenal playing Klang Valley United. My job is to help B minimize damage, and maintain dignity. Why is a man like B so susceptible to strife as this? Because not all men qualify as Male Friends. If a man were out and out straight to the point, he disqualifies himself. The woman knows this man cannot be her Male Friend. 1) The Male Friend knows no absolutes. 2) The Male Friend knows not himself. 3) The Male Friend is kind. 4) The Male Friend is giving. 5) The Male Friend is considerate. 6) Most important of all, the Male Friend listens. Article 1 of the Male Friend Creed requires the Male Friend to be always open to suggestion, and it is no surprise that many Male Friends are not obstinate people. Article 2 is a pre-requisite that not many realise. The woman likes a Male Friend that asks her for her opinion about himself. She thinks it demonstrates trust, but sub-consciously, she knows she's got him eating out of her hands. Article 7, which is unwritten, is the article in the creed which is not often talked about, and I risk life and limb revealing it here. It states (and I am paraphrasing) that the Male Friend may be from time to time, called upon to deliver services, possibly of a carnal nature, which he would normally prefer to be in the context of a loving relationship, and not complain. Most Male Friends don't complain about Article 7. And if they did protest, they score an own goal again. As you can now imagine, a man like B would be very much sought after as a Male Friend. He embodies and upholds the Creed like few other. And I won't even talk about Article 7. Notice that nothing in the Creed speaks of honesty. A Male Friend can be all of the above without being honest, for that is not a pre-requisite. Because why? Because the woman likes a bit of veil play. A Male Friend presenting himself to be platonic and at the same time masking badly his romantic intentions turns a woman on as much as a hot-blooded straight out passionate encounter. It gives her confidence. In fact, it empowers her whereas the latter may subjugate her. So how would I help B maintain dignity? How could I possibly, you may well ask? I don't know for sure. But we Male Friends do stand a chance of survival in this mad, bad world. If only we didn't fall in love so.